My testimony,sexually abuse by both parents

Hello Im a survivor of sexual and physical abuse.. It started when I was 2 and ended when I was 12.. I remember a lot of stuff that went on.. My mom and dad both sexually molested and raped me.. They would have group sex with other people and me.. I would have sleep overs so they could molest my friends. one night my dads cousin snuck into my room and started molesting me and I started crying my parents woke up and he was asked to leave, I guess cause I was so upset in the end my dad said to me well if he would have asked first it would have been ok.. Then he told me to go back to bed.. One time my dad took me into a porn shop when I was about 4 or 5, I just remember looking at everything in shock. The guy who worked there finally made him leave. Back then things were really different huh.. When my mom did things to me the next day she would beat me and tell me I liked it when my dad did stuff to me.. Sex was such a big part in our lives it was normal to me..
When my parents separated my mom remarried and had my step dad molest me with her.. She would bribe me with money when I got older.. When I was 12 I knew it was wrong and I kept telling them no.. I also Got beat a lot by my mom for no reason.. If she was in a bad mood I would get beat or she would pull me around by my long hair until it came out..
When I was 15 I was in counseling and I started to share my story. My therapist had to report what I was saying to her and then came the court hearings. First my dad and then my mom and step dad.. My dad received 15 years and my mom and step dad received a plea that I allowed them to have. It took 4 years of court hearings That was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. Well theres so much more to my story and I will keep sharing.
Im now married with 2 boys and I strive to be a much healthier and better parent. It is hard and I do have to watch my temper, but I do it. I have a homeless ministry called Help for our homeless. Its nice to give back when you can and even if you dont have much.. In my 20 I got addicted to drugs for 4 years through God I survived. Now I try to help others. I have been clean for almost 8 years now.